I knew I had a problem with drugs because at an early age when I took them, they helped me with my anxiety tremendously. The crazy thing is, as time went on, that same anxiety that went away from the drugs got so much worse, and then I was in my 20s, and although I thought they were working, I had some disastrous experiences working as a celebrity agent. The first one was with my biggest client Magic Johnson. I’ll never forget being in Anaheim at the Convention Center, and I felt so sick, so nauseous. My stomach was so upset. I had heart palpitations, sweaty palms, hot flashes. And I said to him, I need to lie down. I’m literally lying down on the convention floor in the bathroom as Magic’s meeting and greeting with different fans. It’s humiliating, embarrassing, to say the least. I remember getting home that night, just being so disgusted at myself. How could this happen? How could I let it get this bad?
Then I had another experience, which was even worse. It was the biggest thrill of my professional career. I’m sitting center court side with Muhammad Ali and Smokin’ Joe Frazier at the 2002 NBA All Star game. I got these two kings together to make peace for the first time in over 35 years, and mate, I was high as a kite because I didn’t feel worthy of the situation. My body also just couldn’t adapt to being in a situation just like that, that should have been so historic and so monumental. I only knew how to numb myself. And I completely didn’t enjoy the experience whatsoever, when I really should have just made it the greatest professional experience in my life.
And I tried to get sober for so many years at least two on my own, with the help of doctors, I would go on suboxone, I would come off of it, I would detox, I would have to go back on drugs. It was hell, pure hell. I was suicidal, miserable. Everybody around me knew how bad it was getting. They would say something to me, but I didn’t know what to do. I had nowhere to turn, and you know, looking back at it now, I wish I did it differently.
I work with Banyan Treatment Centers. They have 11 facilities in four different States. And if I knew of a Banyan, I would have taken the shortcut, I would have done it the right way and said to myself, “Check me in. I need the help. Let me get my life back.” That’s all I ever wanted. Because the way I did it, it took forever. It was years of heartache, years of just terrible, terrible withdrawal pains until I finally got sober on July 2nd, 2008.
So I’m trying to save you all the time and the heartache and the suicidal depression.
Call me directly at 888-6-Darren And let me try to help you get to Banyan Treatment Centers and get the help thing you need to have the life that you deserve.